I found love...and u know its u!!!
Love, nobody in this world has ever been able to explain the exact, precise meaning of it. It’s the feeling which can only be experienced once. There are attractions, infatuations and crushes which we think is love but somewhere when we actually experience it, it’s then we realize that it’s different from all the three mentioned. It’s the feeling which cannot be explained in words but can only be felt and then you know it. The lovely feeling which not only makes you feel special but also makes you feel that you are on the top of the world and that there is someone apart from your parents who actually treats you right and you mean world to that person and vice versa. Moreover when you know that a simple smile on his/her face means everything and can just make your day. The feeling even if he/she is far away from you but you actually know each and every part of your partner. Even if you are not talking but you know that whenever you talk, it’s the same passion and craves to hear the voice of your lover and to know each and everything from his/her mouth and only the words which say “I LOVE YOU”.
It’s not always necessary to get the person you love to love you back, but that doesn’t stop you from loving him/her. Just the feeling is enough to feel good and go on in life. Not everybody in life get their desired love about whom they have dreamt or desired to stay with. The happiness on your face which comes when you see your loved one happy and smiling even if it’s without you and with someone else. Unconditional love is difficult to find and difficult to get. When asked to different people, different perspectives come in front. My love once told me “if u ready to fall apart in all senses, fall in love otherwise there is no point of daring it” and it proved right as everyday its difficult for me not to love him. The more I think about him, each day I fall in love. He is not with me and he can never be with me again, but that is not an excuse not to love him. It’s the feeling that doesn’t want to leave this heart ever and my life as it is just part of me like I am breathing every second. Though he is not physically present in front doesn’t stop me from caring about him. Though he doesn’t talk to me it doesn’t stop me from remembering the beautiful conversations that we used to have every day. The memories still lingers in my mind of the first time I saw him, I had my first word with him and the times spent together as there was no end to the relationship and full trust and faith over each other. All the talks had the power to not only win my trust on him but also made me passionate about him. I knew that I was getting addicted as he was becoming a daily dose for me. That was the time when I felt that yes I was in love with him. The day that I still remember when he gave me the sign of willingness and helped me in putting forward my true feelings for him. The most beautiful moment and the entire conversation are still in my heart and the way he reciprocated. The things changed, and as it’s always is, I felt butterflies in my stomach and had sleepless nights, used to wait for one message or a morning and good night wish from his side every day. The words that he always use to say since we knew each other “I am always there baby” meant everything to me as it always reduced the distance between us. It never mattered how far I was from him. He was always in my dreams, memories, heart and whatever I did because he was always there with me. The silence which I always understood but never let him know took me closer to him. I felt proud each day to understand him and felt safe and secured. The person who never judged me for whatever I did in my life and who cared for me at every step was him. I actually felt that there was nothing that could make me disconnect with him ever. Things were not only beautiful but perfect as there was perfect space, time and distance between each other.
Truly speaking whatever happened after that was not easy and the impact that he left on me was not easy to withdraw and somewhere he should know it that now he left me broken and shattered. I still love him the way I did when I first saw him and talked to him. Its difficult to just take him out of my mind and memories and I am happy that I have shared those moments with him. I am grateful to you buddy for being the best part of me and making me into a perfect individual. Also for being the best friend ever and loving me so much which no one would have ever done. Though the emptiness will never be filled and the question of getting over does not even come as its about not loving you and that’s not possible. You will be glad to know dear that I got the answer to my question “ you knew it and whatever you did, you did because you knew that this was love, yes baby this is love”
Finally the people who inspired me to write it and helped me in putting forward my feelings and good things about love is Ankur bhaiya and Titaas Mitra(roomie). Thank you so much. J
